How's your tntt life?
more importantly, how’s my spirituality life?
honestly, it’s not that great. I feel like I’m losing my connection with God. Trust me, I want to feel it again, but I don’t know where to start. Yes, I try to talk to him as much as I can, but most of the time I don’t feel like he’s there or even listening. Right now, I just feel empty.
I love kids a lot. Being around them makes me smile. They give me positive energy and great enthusiasm. However, how can I teach kids about faith when I don’t have it myself? I really want to Thang Cap. I’ve been waiting to wear that Huynh Truong khan for 14 years, ever since I was five. But there’s a part of me that feels selfish. I want that khan bad, but I also feel like I’m going to get a trophy that I don’t deserve.
This is the first time I’m mentioning this, but I cry every night. Wondering if God gave up on me. Wondering if He still loves me. Wondering if He forgave my sins. Wondering if He still has a plan for me.